April 23, 2012

Some say you tend to forget your life when you're so busy with work. Well, I say yes. I've been a little busy lately. From home to work, from work to home. I can't do freely the things I do before. I don't have that much time to watch TV or even take the time to go online for so long. I'm still on the 4th chapter of the 300+ paged book I'm reading. I don't talk to my friends that much. I don't have that much time. Unlike before, I have all the time that I want. I can always cut classes. I have a lot of time for TV shows or movies I love. I am almost 24 hours online in all the social networking sites that I belong. I can't even update my blog (good thing, i found the perfect time tonight). Now, I can't just not report to work anytime I want. Now, I sleep early. Now, I wake up early. And worst of all,now, I save (well, it's a very good thing but admit it, it's HARD). The very purpose of this entry is to update myself with what's going on in  life right now or what I feel or just simply write about it. To at least make me remember the things I sometimes forget. 

FAMILY

I always say that I am the luckiest person because of my God-given family. Until now, they are still there for me. They're still holding my hand in every step I take. They are still in full support. They are still my source of unending happiness. But like other families out there, we still have our differences. We fight from time to time. We say hurtful things to each other. We do things that can hurt another but at the end of the day, we still forgive.

Mama's my favorite person in the world. I know and she knows that I am already a working girl but she treats me line a baby....still. She wakes me up every morning. Prepares food for me. Reminds me of everything I forget. She still asks me so many things. She still wants to know the status of my heart. She is still the best mom. Papa, on the other hand, is more like Mama. The only difference is, Papa has never been that showy. He is the quiet one but the disciplinarian. He is still my source of wisdom and my superhero. My 2 sisters, my first bestfriends and my worst enemies. Now that we are all grown ups, I often think of what life has in store for us. I wonder what will happen, where will we be.  I am just so excited to see us three by then. I thank my family for being so supportive, for always being here. We have limited time together. How I wish I was a kid again. But life has to go on. We have to move on. What I do now is all because of and all for you. I came from a good school and now am part of a successdul BPO company and all these are all because of you guys.

WORK

I don't have much to say about my work. I love my work and the people I'm working with. I may always be stressed out or tired but just seeing the new friends I have makes it all worth it. They bully me almost everyday but that doesn't make me love them any less. I look forward for more memories with you guys. There are no perfect jobs or companies, I know that, but YOU all of you, makes ours close to one. 

FRIENDS

I miss them so much. That's what I needed to say for the longest time. I miss our times together. We talk, eat, bond almost everyday. I just want those things back. But I am just so happy of what we've become. Joanna's okay with her work now. I think she's happy now after that sudden heartbreak. Well, I know she'll make it through. She's strong. In time, she'll find what will make her happy and I can't wait to witness that. Tinay! I miss this tall lady so much. I am waiting for the day that she'll finally stand out. I believe in her....always. Rosechel's in law school. I am a proud friend. She always know what's she's doing and she knows where she's headed. Can't wait to finally call her Atty. Acorda! Letlet! my BFF. We may not talk often but we're bestfriends until we breathe no more. No other words to say. Dyvi, one of the best person I know. I love everything about this person. Do I need to say more? Aika! We undestand each other very well. I hope she'll finally find the job that will make her happy. She'll find it. I know it. Because she deserve every good thing this lifetime can offer. Zion, the most consistent person in my life right now. I never thought there will be someone who would take the time to talk to me or listen to me almost everyday/every night. He is my favorite person right now. I don't think he's aware of that but yeah, he is. 

LOVE

Dear You,

Yes you. I can't admit that I love you. I can't admit it to anyone, to you and even to myself. But it's obvious that I am in love with you. Yes, I am afraid. I am afraid to let you know. I am  just afraid to utter the words. And I certainly am afraid to lose what we still have. Well, you make sick but I will never question myself why I do love you. I don't have to give the reasons but I know I just do. 

GOD

Lord, you're the first who knows everything that is written here even those that are not. Thank you for always understanding me. For giving me all the things that I think I don't deserve. I am so sorry for all my short comings. For all my broken promises. Sorry for forgetting you at times. I am so sorry for not doing anything about my mistakes in life. Guide me always in every step I take. Be with me us always, Lord.

Thank you so much for everything that has been and for everything that will be. I love you!

And now, I am relieved.